Father’s Day.

My dad wasn’t a dead beat
He just couldn’t beat death
Found out he didn’t make it
Now I’m takin’ these deep breaths

Hoping I was dreaming
But the nightmare was real
Blacked out in my mamas arms
‘Cause I didn’t know to feel
The opposite of a thrill
I can still feel the chills
Trapped in the matrix
But I ain’t takin’ no pills

OxyContin won’t stop this pain
Umbrellas don’t stop the rain
One day the tide will change
Life will not be the same
But will you ride the wave?
Or let it all drown you?
It’s real hard to swim
With a pool of problems around you

‘Cause ain’t no life guard
When life’s hard
And all you want is money and women
And nice cars?

Man you gotta realize.. that we’ll die one day
Now think about yo’ life and what yo’ child would say

These are the type of thoughts that got a lock on my head
I just wanna be remembered past the day that I’m dead

My dad wasn’t a dead beat
He just couldn’t beat death
So I live with no regrets
In case it’s coming for me next

And if you’re dad’s a deadbeat
That doesn’t mean shit
Forgive before it’s too late
You never know if you’ll be next

So yea,

Happy Father’s Day.

S.O.S.

Her body
Was a body of water
And I
Just wanted to drown
Not swim
Drown
I no longer wanted to breathe
Only wanted to be
Suffocated
By her
Engulfed
By her
Trapped
By her
Other girls
Disguised
As life guards
Trying to “save” me
From falling
From drowning
But I
Let them drift away with the tide
My anchor had been tied
I’m stuck
Forever
I got my wish
They say be careful what you wish for
Now my only wish
Is that I had listened
Too late
I drowned
In love
And now
I’m dead…